"When Will My Life Begin?" by Disney's Tangled

Not since I was a little kid could I identify with a Disney character so much. I love Rapunzel. I love this song. It feels like a voice for my life right now and for that reason, it will probably always hold a special place in my heart, long after the feeling portrayed in it ceases to be my situation. Disney, you have done it again.

"Everybody's Changing" by Keane

"Trying to make a move just to stay in the game...everybody's changing and I don't feel the same."

I don't mind change every once in a while in small doses, but too much change all at once can be overwhelming and hard. Currently I feel like I'm just standing there watching everyone running past me, and I try to move too but I can't. I'm trying to run, trying to get to the places I want to be, trying to keep up, but I'm barely moving at all.

"Kristy, Are You Doing Okay?" by The Offspring

"Don’t waste your whole life trying to get back what was taken away."

That's good advice. Though I believe you can work through just about anything if you are willing, I also believe in letting go of the things that have hurt you if they're not willing to work with you. So stop trying to please others who are not worth your time, who don't deserve the energy you put into them when they so clearly and blatantly hurt you and betray you. I know I'm done letting the past influence my present. Somethings cut so deep that they never do go away. I don't want this to happen to me. I want to be myself again without worrying about how I'm perceived or if someone likes me or not. I want to not subconsciously try to emulate something I'm not just because someone I care about cares for those things instead of me. I want to not be scared of being myself because of others not liking what they see anymore. I want to believe that if someone really gets to know me, they will see how amazing we can be. The kind of pain in this song happened to me. But I control what I do about it.